One thing that i am finding hard through this all is, keeping positive! I know i have to keep and open mind about what could happen, and people keep telling me that i need to keep positive and that it will all work out in the end. I know all that and try to keep telling myself that, but it can be so hard and even more so when i am watching my body not getting any better.
I see the things i want to do slowly start slipping away from me, and i am trying to think positive and tell myself it will work out in the end, and things happen for a reason. But at times all those things are no help to me at all!
I thought i had it all set out, and my path all set in place, but now i have found myself in the middle of all these paths, and not knowing which one i will be able to go down, not until i have a diagnosis. That is what i am finding really hard, not knowing what i am going to be able to do!
All my friends are making their decisions and they know what path they are taking, but i am stuck here completely in the dark about where i can go.
I hate it! I really do! Sometimes i just feel like shutting myself in a room, and just shouting out to the heavens for an answer. It's the worst feeling knowing that i want to do something so badly, but i just physically can't.
I know this post is really just me having a moan, about how i am feeling and the bad week i have had. But i felt i had to let it out, and i thought my blog would be a good place for it. So sorry to those who read my blog, that it's more of a moan compared to my regular posts. I shall still put a quote up like normal :)